if you hold still for a minute
and put your favourite tom petty song on
and look at yourself in the mirror
you can see your whole future.
but you have to be still,
and it should be an accident
and it’s best if you’re alone
and it needs to be vinyl.
before/after 4 loko
rock on.
somewhere near the edge of town
she said she was torn and turned around
room bed view street friends thoughts
light
of things that make me happy
1. brian wilson
2. hp sauce
3. waking up to the smell of bacon
4. tusk
5. ward’s island
6. dancing while laying down
7. girls named TJ
8. my roommate’s compulsive record buying habit
9. all things must pass
10. all things must pass
11. lake huron
12. all things must pass
13. when lauren puts on that call me maybe song
14. laughing really hard
15. also giggling
16. the countryside north east of richmond hill
17. most foliage
18. annie lennox
19. drinking on roof tops
20. window seats
21. drawing middle aged women
22. unexpectedly catching a glimpse of lake ontario from a tall building
23. long promised road
24. moving into a new apartment
25. first kisses
26. my dog
mad
blind
viciously unkind
but I can still read what you’re thinking.
“it’s not a question of better or worse. the point is, not to resist the flow. you go up when you’re supposed to go up and down when you’re supposed to go down. when you’re supposed to go up, find the highest tower and climb to the top. when you’re supposed to go down, find the deepest well and go down to the bottom. when there’s no flow, stay still. if you resist the flow, everything dries up. if everything dries up, the world is darkness. ‘I am he and / he is me: / spring nightfall.’ abandon the self, and there you are.”
from The Wind Up Bird Chronicle by Haruki Murakami
i haven’t been here in months
i’ve been everywhere else but here.
